January 25, 2011
halinat ating pahapyaw na banghayin ang tila nakakatawa ngunit makatutuhanang ginagawa ng bawat estudyante.....
bato bato sa langit ang matamaan, blessing..
a.) BAGO ang exam
1. Ang mga naghahabol na makapasa. Sila iyong pilit ipinapasa ang exam huwag lang mahuli ni nanay at tatay na siya minsan o madalas ay nagkacutting.Iyong mga tipong, di nmn nakikinig,di rin nagsusulat.
Kunwari ay may hindi sila naisulat na notes kaya mangihiram saglit ng notebook sa kaklase na masipag magsulat. Pagnakahiram ay dali daling magpapaxerox, dahil ang totoo, wala nmn talaga xang naisulat. Mabilis na magrereview at tila kompyuter ang utak na ipapasok kaagad-agad ang mga lesson na hindi naman niya naiintindihan. Sa gabi ay
2. Ang mga pakyut. Nagrereview pero ang utak ay wala sa binabasa. Kunwari ay tahimik namagbabasa sa sulok habang ang isang mata ay nagmamasid kung nakatingin sa kanya si crush. Minsan, pagnapapansin na hindi talaga siya napapansin ni CRUSH na nagrereview siya ay lilipat pa talaga siya sa gitna at doon magbabasa ng kunwari ay kinakausap ang sarili. Sa gabi, tinitext niya lahat ng kaklase para lang iinform na nahihirapan siya sa pagrereview, eh pano pa kaya siya makakapagreview ng maayos eh busy na siya sa kakareply ng mga concern text ng mga kaklase niya na nagsasabing "ok lng yn, kaya u yn,,ikw pa..".Si pakyut naman,kikiligin at tuluyanng di makakapagreview,puro text n lng ang magyayari...
3. Ang mga adik sa kompyuter. Manghihingi ng extra allowance kay nanay dahil malapit na ang exam at kailangan niya ng extra more time sa kompyuter dahil marami siyang ireresearch para mas lalong maiintindihan ang mga lessons na siguradong lalabas sa exam. Pagdating sa kompyuter, kunwari ay uunahin muna niya ang paborito niyang laro para makapagstart-up iyong utak, parang makinakumbaga,kelangang magheat muna para gumanda ang takbo. Maglalaro siya ng dota o di kaya ay special force o di kaya ay facebook. Tapos ay hihintayin na lang niya na tatanungin siya ng internet shop attendant kung mag-eextend pa siya saka siya magreresearch. Ngunit nakadalawang extend na siya ay sa laro pa rin siya nakaharap. hanggang huling pang-extend ay wala parin siyang nareview. sasabihin niya manghihingi na lang siya ng extra more minutes sa bantay ng shop para pangreview. Nakakaloka naman iyon, five minutes pangreview? Pag hindi siya binigyan ng extra minutes ay magmamaktol at bubulong bulong na di siya nakapagreview dahil di siya nabigyan free minutes..Pag-uwi sasabihin niya sa nanay na tiyak na madali lang ang exam at siguradong maipapasa niya, oh diba nagyabang pa talaga...
b.) HABANG nasa exam
1. Si pahabol, nagkakamot sa ulo na wala namang kuto, kasi namental bock. Akalain mo ba namang magdamag niyang inral ang lahat ng lesson. Lilingon-lingon siya at maghahanap ng mukhang nakaharap sa kanya at masenyasan niya ng answer. O di kaya ay pag nakatingin saglit si ma'am sa cellphone niya ay dagli niyang hahabaan ang leeg niya upang makita ang sagot ng katabi,mali man o tama, bahala na si BATMAN. basta may maisagot lang siya.
2. Si pakyut. Ang medyo mahangin rin, kunwari ay pakanta-kanta pa siya sa pagsagot ng exam. Iyon paa ay wala namang naisagpt. Lahat ng di niya alam ay lalagpasan at tatapusin ang exam ng walang bahid ng pag-aalala. Lilingon lingon pa siya sa mga kaklase at ngingiti-ngiti. Tapos ay uunahan niya pa sa pagpasa ang matalino sa klase nila.
3.Si adik sa kompyuter. Walang maalala kundi ang genocide at fire in the hole lang. At tsaka ang pictures ng mga crush niya sa facebook.Naks naman talaga. Ngunit sadyang magaling siya,irereason out niya lahat ng hindi niya alam. Lalabas na may malalim siyang sagot.Isang exlanation na hindi alan kung saan nahugot..
c.)PAGKATAPOS ng exam..
1. Si pahabol. Ang pinakahuling pagpapasa ng papel. hihimayinang bawat sagot kahit nagkanda sugat sugat na yong anit niya sa kakamot.
2. Si pakyut.Parang walang nangyari at nagtitext pa siya. Ginugood luck pa ang mga kaklase para sa results. Pakanta kanta pa habang naghhintay para sa susunod na subject na eexamin.
3. SI adik sa kompyuter. Excited na matapos na lahat ng exam at nang wala na siyang iisipin habang naglalaro ng paborito niyang online games. Tapos pagtinanong siya tungkol sa exam, ang isasagot, paliwanag na napakahaba galing sa internet kuno na kahit ang matalino sa klase ay nagugulluhan at hindi maintindihan..
Pagdating ng results, ang masipag lang ang pumasa, merong tsumamba na medyo nakakabit sa tenga ng 75 pero madami ang pumalya. Silang tatlo ang sasabihin pagkatanggap ng results, "GANUN TALAGA ANG BUHAY. MAY NEXT TIME PA NMN EH..." di na nadala...
"sweet revenge"
A simple quote that was pasted on my mind until now. One, two, three, four. Its been four years since she last told me those quotes that keeps hunting me in my nights of loneliness.
It was a cold night, a dinner with her before a trip to Regional Schools Press Conference '07. My father and my mother had just broke up the day before the trip to my contest. I ate quietly, I don't wanna talk, because in my heart the pain still remains.
I cant hold my tears anymore so I looked down and let the tears flow in my cheeks. She noticed me and she stopped eating too. She began asking me what had happened. I decided to share to her the incident. I don't know where to go, how to raise my little sisters. My tears pour down realizing how bad my situation was. Enlightened with her keen advises, I told her, I will try to moved on. Although we didn't won the contest, I came home enlightened. Enough price for my weary heart.
Months passed, our recognitions coming. I still cant move on. But as I stepped forward, the worst things come. My spot in the top ten caused envy from my classmate, my rivalry for the top 2 spot. In all of the invitation letters,I was held second. But in the middle of the awarding program, our principal came on stage. Apologizing about the invitation letter. Telling the crowd that the invitation letters were written wrong. They calculated the grades again and the result was I was just topped sixth. I felt humiliation's striking me. I took the boo's of the crowd. I didn't cry,"who cares?" I told my self. I still do get my awards. Changing the second placer medal into a sixth placer ribbon.
I enrolled in a math advancement class. I sacrificed my vacation to know how does it happen. I discovered that what were written in my card, were not my grades. It was the grades of my friend.I ask for my school paper adviser for some help. I wanted to put some lessons to my third year teacher about the manifestations that ruined my identity. She just told me that the sweetest revenge I could do is to let them see I conquer amidst their blocks.
At first it was so hard, I cant face my school mates straight. I lost confidence, it enables me to join contests. I seldom wrote for our school paper. She advised me again. She reminds me of the things she told me the night we talked after my parents separated. She told me that I am strong enough. That I am worthy of the award. I studied hard enough, again, I joined contest and won some. I actively participated school activities.
The graduation came. Our adviser met us in a general meeting. Announcing every part of he graduation ceremony and who will do the parts. My closed friend did the Pledge Of Loyalty and one of the honorable mentions was obliged to do the doxology.The valedictorian's speech was assigned to me. I was so overwhelmed. I made it. From first year to third year I never made it to the top. I could see my rivals smirk as I personally thank some of my friends for the support, and also to my teacher who motivated me to do things in a sweet revenge .
Now I am not in her side anymore. After the graduation, we live our own lives. We lost each others communication. I was stocked. Working for my sisters and for myself, cant even save me from guilt. I promised to her that I will finish college by hook or by crook. I will let my parents know that we never gave up life. That to put my parents together, I should get a diploma.
I always wanted to give up. After a hard day work from an internet shop where I worked, I would beak down, crying. I don't know why, but there's just this feeling inside that pulls down my fate. Thinking that I was made as a failure. She will never know if I made my promise or not, but I always tried to find remedies for my education.
Every time I think to give up my dreams, its her words that keep shouting in my head. Every steps I walked back, its her words that pushed me to walk two steps ahead. The only thing I never lost was the writing passion she injected in me while we are together. As she said, "outside the four corners of a classroom, you gotta learn something that will lead you to your dreams. Not all the necessary things are taught inside." I learned to write even in the rocky part of my road. Even without proper education, I know I will reach my dream. Because I got 20% motivation and 20% inspiration, 10% perspiration and 50% faith. The sweetest revenge as it is. I know I'll be there, sooner and not later. As what every character in the movies says,
"Akin ang huling halakhak." (The last laughs mine.)#
JONAFE YABOT
5991 Tramo St. San Dionisio,
ParaƱaque City, Philippines.
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